You’re not lazy, you’re just cyclical

The past few weeks I've been in a funny phase of cycles of attention that are so markedly varied and strong in their demands that I can't help but listen.

Alert, ready motivation; Sleepy slow spaciness; Inward sensory care; Spatial organizational tending; Creative, tactile, meditative...

I may generally have this kind of variety of tone and interest, but recently the call to each feels more imperative.

I fought it at first... and at second... I'll admit. On days where it felt like some fairy godmother had cast a sleep spell on me, I argued with myself that I should really be getting something done. But last week I made an agreement with myself. A simple one:

"I'm doing everything just right."
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And, everything has changed. I reworked my list of priorities for June, including qualitative ones first: Love, Connection, and Joy. All the to-do's that stayed on my list nourish these main interests. And I'm humming along, following my flows, and everything is just fine :)

I recently learned a key concept that applies here: Cyclical Motivation. Some of us are more linear in our approach to moving towards our goals and daily tasks. Some are more cyclical – doing things in phases that are less attached to clock time, and more based on a felt sense of what is interesting and accessible to us at any given moment.

While I can do a bit of both, holding myself to Linear Motivation standards in general makes my grumpy, dried up and less able to actually do what I have set out to accomplish, let alone do so with the kind of creativity, Love, Joy and Connection that so dearly matter to me.

If you're finding yourself swept into a dreamy dream state, or really excited about something that seems 'off track'... or if you just got a little bored of what you were working on and can't seem to move forward, try a little cyclical flow... maybe it suits you!

Here's to listening and learning and cherishing our rhythms every day.

Lee